Happy happy new year. I’m still here. Sometimes. In the weird case that you’re reading this and wondering where the hell I’ve been, here’s a sort-of concise primer on the things I’m feeling today, so far this year, etc.
- I’m on day 13 of no sweets or processed foods for the month of January.
It’s surprisingly not difficult in a physiological sense. It’s (unsurprisingly) surprising how satisfying whole foods are. But psychologically, it’s a whole other animal. I have an emotional addiction to sugar, and I have a tendency to eat my feelings. It’s something I’ve touched on before and something I’ll likely be dealing with for the rest of my life. But into the ether I go. I’m definitely feeling the void right now, but the lack of brain fog as of now provides me with the clarity to deal with it accordingly.
- Yoga with Adriene is the purest thing to ever happen to YouTube.
I seemed to have transferred my weird sugar addiction over to compulsively watching trashy YouTube videos. And also yoga. I’ve been practicing yoga fairly regularly for the past few months. It’s the best mind/body medicine I’ve ever encountered. Her channel, unlike the weird vegan YouTube drama I love to hate-watch, is different. No sponsored posts, no clickbait, no harmful messaging. Just great content that is helping me build mental and physical strength without having to leave my house (a serious bonus). Whether you’re a seasoned yogi or someone who just wants to cultivate a deeper mind/body connection, please check out her videos.
- I’m writing a book!
I’m in the planning stages, but it is indeed happening. It’s not specifically about food, but since it’s a book about me, food will make its way in there. I’m not saying anything else, lest I jinx myself. What I WILL say is that Story Genius by Lisa Cron is making my brain do major cartwheels. Hate to sound cliche, but it’s taking everything I ever thought about the writing process and turning it inside out. Stay tuned.
- I cultivated my very own sourdough starter for the first time ever.
Yes, you read that correctly. While I’ve used others’ starters for years, I successfully cultivated my own for the very first time. This is thanks, in part, to the other purest thing to ever happen to youtube, Joshua Weissman. His recipes are fed and informed by his passions, and he knows what he’s doing. I made my first loaf of the year with this starter and while it was a bit misshapen, the flavor was good.
Here’s the link to the video I referenced to get my starter, well, started.
- I’m still not posting on Follow Your Fork Instagram. It’s part avoidance, part stubbornness, but mostly I’m just following my *~internal fork*~ (sorry about that) and doing what feels right.
- I’m in the process of learning how to find expansion in simplicity.
Sometimes I feel like I don’t know who I am when I’m alone in a room. I’ve realized a big part of my creative process thus far in life has been informed by the reception and validation of an audience. I’m interested in learning who I am in contrast to stark nobody nothingness. It’s a little hard, and a bit embarrassing — especially when you realize how much I want to be liked and seen, just like everyone else. But it’s a learning process.
TLDR; I’m 27 and it’s 2019. I’m a little less tortured, a little more boring, and working on cultivating ample magic in small, quiet spaces. I’ll let you know how it goes.